Scott

He surprised me on Friday and paid me $500 of the rent money back. He went to play poker with me, and when i got to his house, he was very happy, touchy, and joking with me...and i was looking forward to a great night together.

I had been drinking a little before I went to get him---2 beers and 2 capecods in 40 minutes. And only popcorn for food. So I was a little tipsy.

We stopped at liquour store...and I got a drink called "Hot Sex"--12.5% alcohol. I didn't feel like beer that night.

We sit at the same table...and I am being my usual loopy/goofy self...and I am kinda flirting with a guy named Chip. Scott is not talking to anyone...drinking and playing poker is what he is doing. He loses his money several times...and I can tell he is getting upset. Then a phone starts ringing...and I am sure that it isn't mine...and then he pulls out phone, reads message, texts back...and is smiling...I got a little pissed. Then it rings again and he answers it...and says I'll call you back in 10-15 minutes...I get even more pissed. It's fucking 1:15am...who the hell is calling him???? He gets knocked out...and goes out the front door. About half hour later, I go outside, and he is on the phone laughing, and i hear him say the name JJ. I go back inside and about every 15 minutes, I go out to see if he is there--cuz I was going to be royally pissed if he got picked up by someone else.

He wasn't there the last time...so I call him. no answer. I text him. no answer. I call again and he says what? and tells me that he is walking home and waiting for a cab. I tell him I am ready to go...why didn't he just tell me. He says why didn't I leave yet? I go cash out and get my stuff together and tell Amanda I am leaving. I barely get to say good bye to Chip....

And I go back to the car, and there is a text message telling me where he is. I find him, he gets in the car...and he isn't talking to me...and he is in his own world. We get to his place and I ask him if he wants me to leave---he doesn't answer and just gets out of the car. I decide that I am not going to leave him alone, and go to his door thinking that I am gonna have to knock or something---nope, he left the door open for me. So there we are in the dark...and he says what? And I tell him that I don't know what. Then he says,"Please don't be mad at me now." i assure him that i am not mad at him, that I am worried/concerned about him. He touched me though---he was pretty vulnerable at that moment.

So I moved up by his head, and sat on the floor...with my head near his on the couch...and we talked until he fell asleep. Before he fell asleep, he told me that I could stay if I wanted...and of course I always want to stay with him! I tried to sleep on the floor next to the couch, but i was coughing too much. So I moved to his bed, thinking he would wake up and come join me...he never woke up--and even when I left at 10am, he didn't wake up.

I left him a note, and one of the $100's he had given me---cuz I know he can use it more than me.

Yesterday I didnt get any replies back from him at all. I hope he isn't mad at me for doing that...or embarrassed about the night before. I just tried calling him, also.