Birthday Dinner with Scott

On Monday night, 12/18, we met up with another couple--friends of mine at a bar. We had some drinks, then went to dinner. Scott got a phone call, and he got up from the table to go talk to whoever it was. I was pissed. He was going to leave the phone in the car...and I didn't let him---since the car was already locked..so it was my own fault. He was also nervous about going to the restaurant 'cuz someone works there that he didn't want to see.

Then the couple went home, and we went to another bar, and we were having a great time drinking, laughing and talking. Admittedly, I got a little drunk. We went back to his place, and I gave him his other birthday present--and went to the restroom. When I came out, he was being goofy, and I took the present from his hand, and he held my hand by entwining his fingers, and i thought we were going to kiss. Instead, after a brief moment, he let go...and I am VERY sketchy on what happened next.

I do know that I cried, that we went from room to room, and that he was kinda yelling at me. That some of the things he said made no sense to me what so ever--including the fact that he told me that he has a girlfriend. WHAT THE FUCK????

How can he have a girlfriend? and spend everyday with me, and sleep with me, and go on a cruise with me??? and use my cell phone? and have a girlfriend??? If anyone is his girlfriend it would have to be me??? wouldn't it?? I know that things are different nowadays, but I don't know many women that will let their boyfriends hangout and have sleepovers with another girl...and I am pretty damn progressive myself.

So when we woke up on Tuesday morning, he is yelling at me to get up, and wasn't he clear last night that his girlfriend was picking him up, and i had to be gone...I was in a daze...one from being drunk...and two, I have absolutely no memory of that whatsoever! So I said bye, and left.

About an hour and a half later, I get a text message from him telling me that he is sorry that he is such a jackass.

And then he disappeared.

I sent him a card asking to see him on Thursday night..and I called him during lunch on Thursday, and he answered and told me he was going home. We talked for 20 minutes..and then the phone died. We talked as if nothing had happened.

He called me on Friday morning so that I could email something to his doctor...and he told me that he appreciates me.

I gotta say..it was kinda quiet and dull knowing that he is away, and I cant really call him, cause I don't want to intrude on him.

oops...fell asleep.