A New Man

and to continue the story.....

A new man, Ben, invited me to go to poker with him last night...and I said yes. He is tall, dark, and gorgeous, and very sexy. My friend, Amanda, insisted that I go and keep my options open.

So I got to meet his friends...and see how he is in his relaxed, normal environment.

What surprised me, is that he is quite social--not quiet at all...and he was very open and touchy with me.

The surprising thing for me was that when he came around, and he was leaning into me, my body automatically responded by leaning into him....and I damn near swooned several times. I haven't felt like that in years---and have forgotten what that feels like. Definitely made it difficult to concentrate. There was definitely alot of sexual energy flowing between us. That makes me nervous.

He was aware that I hadn't been drinking, and he offered me a beer, and he toasted me.

His friends were teasing him about some other women---I guess they didn't realize that I was kinda there to be with him--so I did get to learn alot about him that I wouldn't have learned otherwise. And they were joking with him about having sex with a couple of women. I just took it all in. Apparently they are all really good friends, and are pretty open with one another.

And admittedly, I felt a little "guilty" that I was there, having these feelings, and thinking about Scott.

Sadly, he left ....and didn't really say good-bye. I called him on the ride home and left him a message thanking him for the evening and inviting him to come to the game tonight.

I had thought about not getting into the game, in case he wanted to leave---'cause well, I wanted to spend a little bit of time with him--to check things out.