So Much Going On....

I don't know where to start! I have been spending an increasing amount of time with Scott. I spent the night again on Thursday, and I had picked him up at 8:30 and left at 11am.

I told him that I need to get to know two of him---the one that is sober...and the one that is drinking. He is much more open, and vulnerable when he is drinking--and we have some incredible talks with him. He opened up quite a bit on Thursday night, and I am pretty sure that I know now why he doesn't want to be involved with anyone right now. With all the time that he and I are spending together---there is no time for him to be seeing anyone!

As he was talking, I got in between his legs and held his face in my hands---and told him that he is making a great difference, and that I wasn't going to tell him that night---but he just needed to know that he makes a huge difference/contribution in my life.

Then he laid down, and I stroked his back and his hair while he was talking.....he told me that he doesn't have anyone in his life that supports his dreams unconditionally....so when he fell asleep--I kept talking to him, for it to go into his subconscious.

I woke up at 8am, and he had moved to his bed---but I had a pillow under my head, so he had to have put it there....and when I went to the restroom, he was naked in bed! So I got to see his butt! His front was covered---too bad!

I made an executive decision, not to sleep in the bed---since he was naked. I didn't want him to feel weird, waking up naked next to me.

I am gonna do some work with him.....which is hopefully going to bridge the gap between his sober/drunk self. And he will begin to trust me more when he is sober.

We are clearly becoming good, intimate friends......

I was hoping he was going to go with me to a party tonight....but he went to the beach with some people...and he told me he would be sitting on the beach by himself.