Sooooooo Much Drama!

I can hardly believe that it has already been two weeks since I last wrote here. So much has happened...and while I have been a little under the weather, it still isn't any excuse.

The most exciting, wonderful news is that Scott never left me at all! I saw him on Monday night, and my heart sang! He said hello, and later, I asked him if we could talk, and he said "of course, sure!" So the first thing I asked him was where he had been---and he asked me where I had been. I said I haven't heard from you in three weeks....and he said, "you are crazy! I've been texting you." I said no you haven't! And then he told me my phone was a piece of shit---and he proceeded to show me on his cell phone, the messages that he had been sending me.

He then "accused" me of playing a game with him---cause I had texted him from my work phone, and he had written back, "who is this?" and I didn't respond. He said he knew it was me, and that I was using someone else's phone. I said, no...it is my phone. And he didn't believe me....so I showed him, that indeed it was my phone, and I assured him that the last thing I want to do is play games. Then I asked him, if based on the things that I had shared with him---didn't he know that about me by now?

We were outside talking for about 20 minutes. He then said that he had told me a long time ago that he was kinda seeing someone on/off again. And that if he gave me the wrong impression, he was sorry. And then he said,"But we can be friends." And I said I certainly hope so---'cause I think you are a pretty cool person. And he said that he thinks the same. And I said, so we are just going to be friends...and he said "at this time." And then, I asked him if it was a guy or a girl. He said,"you think I'm gay???" And I said, "hey, nowadays, you never know! I had to ask!" That seemed to relax him too----that I wasn't upset.

Now we both had been drinking....and I was pretty close to drunk....we went inside and sat at the same table to play poker. A couple of my friends were at the table too, and he was getting along great with them. His friend (same one that left him that fateful night) got out early, so I told Scott that I would give him a ride home if he wanted. So he told his friend that he could go. So then, I started winning...and Scott lost, and he called the guy....and I told him that I would just throw the chips away...so I could go hang with him.

By then, the guy had come back...so he left without saying good-bye. That upset me, and I couldn't help but tear up. Then, my phone rang at 1am, and he wanted to know what the plan was....and I told him that I would be there within half an hour.....and he said he thought I would have already been on my way....and that since I wasn't, he was gonna go to bed. That really upset me.....and well, I really really got upset. Wonder of it all, is that I still came in 2nd.

I have had 3 text messages from him since Monday night, including one at 1am to ask a "lame" question that wasn't even worth writing.....

so, I gotta wonder.......and well....I learned some important things about myself. I'm not sure why the Universe conspired against my getting his text messages for three weeks. And he certainly does enjoy my company---and he most certainly tried to kiss me---so, we'll see what kind of game he wants to play. I know that I let the external world dictate my internal/emotional state....but I also learned from this that not everything is as it seems. And I can't let myself fall completely apart to the point of being motionless. Which I had been for the three weeks that I didn't see him.

I'm only so thankful that I had my contacts on that night, and had dressed nicely---I asked one of my friends if I looked different that night....and she said yes! it was good for him to see me like that!

And my goodness, he was even more beautiful than I remembered! I think I am gonna have to take a picture of him with my phone....