balancing 4 guys

is getting difficult----especially when 2 are potential, and 2 i have already slept with....and i am having fun with the potentials....and i get a booty call....and miss out on amazing sex with David.

i have been spending alot of time with young David....he went on a roadtrip with me.

last thursday, ben and kris met me at a bar....and we all ended up together, playing cards til the bar closed. Was fun....and strange....people said that ben was definitely flirting....and so on sunday night, kris came to see me, and Ben asked me if i had called him for a booty call....he said it jokingly....but....i didn't like it.....and i said i don't do that.....and he said, me neither ....last time was 7 months ago.

And kris asked me what his deal is because he said that Ben hit him in the kidney...which is so juvenile.....and i talked with ben afterwards for a bit...and we made plans for tuesday....but today is thursday...and he hasn't called or text me since sunday....i don't understand it....

young david wants to go wherever i go tonight.....kris probably will be out tonight....don't know about Ben....but i am sure that David is going to want to see me, too.

kris

a new guy....who seems to be open to having me around...he has invited me to be with he and his friends...two times now! And last night he came to see me too!

everyone thinks he is cute....and he is 30...with a 4 year old son. he is polite and funny...very similar to ben in demeanor and personality.

nice.....

Ben

So after my intoxicating afternoon, i was taking Ben out to dinner for his birthday....we went to the same place again...and we were together for 3 hours...and we laughed and talked so well together. He's so easy and wonderful...and sexy to me....

I can't wait to see him again.....hopefully tonight.

i didn't have his presents ready for him.....what is that about?

Intoxicating Sex

i have never experienced getting drunk off of sex....ever.....

last Thursday, i met up with David...and the verbal foreplay was hot...then he started touching...and it was time to go somewhere....

but first...he admitted that he lives with someone...the mother of his son....but i still don't know if I believe him...especially when he says he is with her to make sure that he can have his son in his life. And he is out at night--almost every night....did he make up this person to keep me at bay??

Anyway, we went to a park near my house...because i trust him enough to share my body with him...but not bring him to my home...it was after midnight, and the air was cool, and the stars and moon were wonderful....We started making out....and i began to feel drunk...and then we were beyond gone...and we had crazy, uncontrolled sex in the park...i felt like an addict that couldn't get enough....i felt like anita blake when she is with her lycan and vamp....

We parted ways...and i didn't see him all weekend. Tuesday morning, i get a text asking me what i am doing today? me? So i found a hotel....and we had sex, amazing sex for 5 hours.....and again...i couldn't get enough of him....and he is so beautiful...and perfect in bed...I have Chris all over again...i just have to make sure the craziness doesn't start up...

This feeling of drunkeness is so strange...so different from anything that i have felt before...but...now in writing...it is like a fire under my skin...that only the coolness of his skin can assuage...and i can't seem to think or process too much information when we are together.

And i am so turned on....all the time.....morning noon and night....its crazy....
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last night i got so incredibly jealous....and upset that i couldnt even talk to David.....

so i opted to go hangout with another guy...and it was good clean fun!