My First Date with Ben

Even though we drove separately, and we split the bill....I am considering it my first date with Ben. I had the most amazing time with him--he is truly fantastic....and almost too good to be true! And I hear no alarm bells---no sirens----no stress or anxiety on the inside.

We met at Kona, and he opted for inside table, rather than patio, and I sat next to him rather than across from him. We talked for almost half an hour before we ordered. I guess I will write the highlights---he is quite unlike any other guy that I have met in a looooong time. I hope he's not gay!!!

Best things he said:

1) He has never had a wasabi burn in his brain---so I said maybe tonight would be his first time, and he would never forget the night. He said, "oh samantha, who said I won't remember tonight anyway."

2) We talked about laughing, and i admitted that if i really get going, then I will snort....."Now, I have something to aspire to. I haven't heard you snort yet...I will have to work on that."

3) "You seem to a very genuine person......and that is rare to find these days."

I was conscious of my body language, and I reached out to touch his leg and arm and hands several times. He scooted his chair closer to mine...I learned so much about him, and his family....and he told me a story about the best christmas present he has ever given---which was to his mom and dad----and he got choked up....

He is way more enlightened than anyone would dream---smart, funny, polite....walked me to my car again...and we talked some more. He had pizza in his arms...so we were blocked from a full hug.....

He was in my dream last night for the first time....we were on the ocean together ---on a trip. And of course there was sex!

I am so on fire...I can't stop thinking about him.....even at dinner while I recognize that I was having a marvelous time with him----my body and my mind was elsewhere---indulging in fantasy.

But I learned something from David---he really liked N...and after three weeks, they still hadn't slept together. So...if a guy really likes a girl...he'll wait. Cuz David is highly sexual...

I actually listened to "your looking like love to me".....I feel like he already stole my heart....without any effort....and no fight on the inside. Is it possible?

I just hope its not going to be just friends.....that will floor me.

wowow.....i'm actually turning David down these days to wait for Ben......