Out of Nowhere!

Ok...I've been absent for the past two months---exactly...and not because nothing has been going on...I just haven't taken the time to write here.

So there is a guy that has been playing poker for over a year in my league, and his name is Brian. Nice, cute, polite, quiet guy. I always thought that Brian was cute, and he always seemed to be cheerful, and he was always one of the regulars that I was happy to see---whenever he showed up.

Previously, I would just say hi, smile, ask how he was, and then once he went out, talk a bit...and that was it. But something changed last week...he came and played Thursday night, and we talked a bit more. Come Friday, I couldn't wait to see him....and when I did, well, my stomach fluttered a bit. We talked a bit more.

Again, I was REALLY looking forward to seeing him on Saturday night. And again, when I first saw him, my stomach fluttered. After poker, we stood talking in the parking lot for about a half hour, and then he asked me if I wanted to go to a coffee shop with him. On the inside I was NERVOUS...but I said yes, and we went to the coolest spot in the world! Well...okay...that is an exaggeration...but it is a 24 hour coffee shop that serves slices of pizza!

Brian was so easy to hang out with, bright, witty and has some interesting goals and dreams. I felt completely relaxed and safe with him....and surprise, surprise...he was actually listening to me!

We talked and laughed til about 6am...then went outside and hung out til 630am. He hugged me bye.

Sunday afternoon, he text me asking me if I wanted to go have coffee...and I said no I planned to play poker....so he came too. We ended up at the final table together, which was fun. Then we went to Bennigans, and were there for about 3 hours. Then outside where we stood for another half hour or so...and I found myself wishing that he would kiss me....but I was also afraid of him kissing me. And so when it was apparent it wasn't going to happen...especially after he gave me a half body hug....I decided it was time to go my way....'cause apparently I had gotten myself into the "friend zone" again.

Monday night, I was at worked and we exchanged some texts..and when I found out that I was going to be done with work early, he said he would hang out with me. We went back to Bennigan's and were there til closing. Our time together was still easy and comfortable for me. I "accidently" touched him a few times just to see if my "friend" read was right...and he did pull away a couple of times. So I guessed that that was that. No problem...I'm used to it!

The bar closes and we go to the parking lot. We stand there yapping for probably almost another half hour, and by then...I was dying for him to kiss me. You know that we gotta go, but I don't wanna leave yet dance....that was us...and then...we were kissing....and thank goodness....he was a great kisser! And after kissing for awhile, he was like I have to go....and after a quick thought, I said I could go with you...and he looked surprised by my offer...and answered, "really?"

So went to his place....drank some water in the kitchen...then up to his room....and we laid in bed together. We talked for a bit, and he was cold and shivering a bit....but my body was heating up...and we started kissing...and for the next hour we explored each other without going all the way! Wowowowowowow! He was gentle, considerate, and totally took me by surprise.

He's kind of a shy guy....so I wasn't expecting an unihibited person....and as he said to me,"I didn't think you were the kind of girl that would be here already." If I had been thinking about it, I probably wouldn't have been there...but we had spent so much quality time together, that I felt good about my decision....and I still do.

I asked him if he could sleep with someone in his bed...and he said yes...problem was that my body was still quite hot for him...and I was giving off too much heat. We fell asleep at one point, but then he woke up and had to go splash water on himself...and after he tossed and turned, I realized that I was really the one responsible, and should go. The sexual energy between my body and his was 'causing the room to be way too hot. So I told him I was going to go, and it was sweet, 'cause he seemed disappointed. To tell the truth, I was too...but I had to go. And as soon as I made the decision, it was like the temperature dropped a few degrees and I swear I felt a breeze come through. I kissed him bye....

All day Tuesday, I couldn't get over how great a night it was with Brian. And here it is Friday, and I am still getting flashes of our time together. And I have been turned on since.

It didn't help on Wednesday night when I went over and we watched a movie in the dark...and I got waves of sexual energy flowing through me just from caressing his arm and hand.....haha...as Yoda would say..."the force is strong with this one." And before I knew it, the movie was over and we talked for awhile and then I wasn't sure when he said "call it a night" if he meant "lets go to bed" or "you gotta go." So rather than ask...I led us to the front door. And he kissed me bye...and damn it was so hard to not just go crazy right there.

Out of character, I am texting him sexually charged messages....and he did come to poker last night, and I was so happy to see him, and I was really looking forward to going home with him. But something happened, and I'm not sure what it was.

He even left without saying goodnight or goodbye....totally not cool....and totally not inline with the guy that I knew up to that point.

So I went home alone...and he hasn't answered my calls or texts today---including an offer of dinner at 5p.

So...we'll see if he comes to play tonight. I hope I didn't do anything to send him running for the hills....he really is a great guy....and well...it's pretty amazing that I could have such a great week with him....and I am not looking for reasons to not "like" him.

I like him alot.....and I think he likes me too........so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that tonight I will go home with guy, and we spend the weekend together.