Lee text me tonight that he was indeed at the bar: "I'm at xxxx's!" To which I text back that I was at another bar playing poker. I text him later if he was still in, and he replied yes. I decided that I would drive the 15-20 minutes to go see him...if he was still there.
When I got there...he was happy to see me, and he hugged me and said you are driving all over! We ended up at the same table...and I got busted out very early....then he got knocked out...so we sat at the bar and watched the basketball game.
I did learn that he is one of four children, he is the middle child and has two brothers and a sister. He said he can boil water, he has a college degree--history/political science. He is still interested in both. He asked me if I cook...and he said that we should try this other beer next time...he asked what nationality I am...and he asked me if I told A. about her being filipino. He also told me that his brother had a girlfriend that was a geisha...and one of his brother's lives in SLC. He is so damn fine...I couldn't keep my eyes off of his chest....perfect amount of hair...and his moustache/goatee around his mouth....damn...damn...damn....then he went to the restroom...and I went by the front door...and I walked him to his car, and he hugged me bye. Maybe A. is right...maybe he doesn't know that I like him. Or maybe he isn't interested that way...
I think I am going to ask him to go to dinner with me next Monday. Can't wait til tomorrow night!
Monday, May 28, 2007
Some Decisions To Be Made
Had an interesting night last night....and I need to decide what to do....about the men in my life. Amanda told me that maybe I am not giving them the right signals at all....that I think they can tell I like them...but I'm not really behaving that way.
Brian--I'm done trying to recreate that first night. I have text him, and called him, and I'm done chasing him. Period. We can't have a relationship anyway, so why bother.
Mike--Same thing. I'm done chasing him. I don't have the energy or the time...I'd sleep with him in a heartbeat...it's gonna be up to him.
Lee--last night was great...I ended up buying him 9 beers? That is crazy! And as a joke, I had the bartender ask him if he wanted to close his tab...and he was like right....he did a good joke on me too....we did have fun together, and I sat next to him for the second session, and he kept touching my leg and whispering in my ear. I did ask him if he was going to play on Monday, and he said he didn't know, but I could still go by myself. And I looked at him and said,"I know I can go by myself." I must have said it kind of harshly, cause he looked at me a little strange...and I said I just don't have as much fun cause I haven't made it to the final table, not once...and its frustrating. He also made a joke about me and vibrators...I couldn't believe he said that! He hugged me several times last night, and also tickled me a couple of times. He told us that they make organic feed for the cattle...how cool!
I do like him very much....but I really can't keep spending money on him like this. I could do alot with that $20, and well...I'm not getting enough back from him.
Scott--called me several times, and we then talked on the phone for over an hour. He was drunk of course, but I did get to see a different side of him. He was talking to the dogs, and talking to them about love, and them needing to be loved....at one point, I said that's nice...and he said "You're nice." And I said "I know." He asked me about my dog, and what happened...and he kept saying he was sorry, and then he apologized that he didnt have the phone. And he brought it up twice about my text message. The first time, I said I'm sorry, and he said I'm sorry too. The second time he brought it up---he said your message said thanks for being a friend to me today on the day my dog died. And I said, no it didn't say that...and he said well that was the jist of it, wasn't it? And I said I guess so...but I didn't say it that way. And all of a sudden he said, I have to go. And I said, no...we aren't going to end the conversation this way....and he totally switched the conversation....and made it light. He ignored my question...how many times do I need to apologize? We talked about the dogs....and he told me that the dogs love him more than anyone else...and that he was there to help get them...it was nice to hear him use the word, love......and I think we are going to be okay.....
But, we are going to have to have a chat for sure....I need him to be on my side...and to help me, and support me like I do him. And I need to not be afraid to talk to him...especially since he is so much a part of my life. For better or worse....we are together for a reason.
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I did have a long talk with Amanda last night about the guys in my life, and I just don't understand why I get into these situations with men...where I become their caretaker, protector, confidante...and I don't get that back from them. I told her that they were all the same to some extent...and she said well, Mike did offer to dig the hole. And she told me that she is over Loren....and that hurt me a little bit. I'm just tired.
I watched, 'Step Up' and was upset that I don't have anyone to love me, hold me and look at me with love in their eyes. I don't want to be alone anymore....I want to be loved and appreciated...
Alright...I'm out of here......I'm sad today.
Brian--I'm done trying to recreate that first night. I have text him, and called him, and I'm done chasing him. Period. We can't have a relationship anyway, so why bother.
Mike--Same thing. I'm done chasing him. I don't have the energy or the time...I'd sleep with him in a heartbeat...it's gonna be up to him.
Lee--last night was great...I ended up buying him 9 beers? That is crazy! And as a joke, I had the bartender ask him if he wanted to close his tab...and he was like right....he did a good joke on me too....we did have fun together, and I sat next to him for the second session, and he kept touching my leg and whispering in my ear. I did ask him if he was going to play on Monday, and he said he didn't know, but I could still go by myself. And I looked at him and said,"I know I can go by myself." I must have said it kind of harshly, cause he looked at me a little strange...and I said I just don't have as much fun cause I haven't made it to the final table, not once...and its frustrating. He also made a joke about me and vibrators...I couldn't believe he said that! He hugged me several times last night, and also tickled me a couple of times. He told us that they make organic feed for the cattle...how cool!
I do like him very much....but I really can't keep spending money on him like this. I could do alot with that $20, and well...I'm not getting enough back from him.
Scott--called me several times, and we then talked on the phone for over an hour. He was drunk of course, but I did get to see a different side of him. He was talking to the dogs, and talking to them about love, and them needing to be loved....at one point, I said that's nice...and he said "You're nice." And I said "I know." He asked me about my dog, and what happened...and he kept saying he was sorry, and then he apologized that he didnt have the phone. And he brought it up twice about my text message. The first time, I said I'm sorry, and he said I'm sorry too. The second time he brought it up---he said your message said thanks for being a friend to me today on the day my dog died. And I said, no it didn't say that...and he said well that was the jist of it, wasn't it? And I said I guess so...but I didn't say it that way. And all of a sudden he said, I have to go. And I said, no...we aren't going to end the conversation this way....and he totally switched the conversation....and made it light. He ignored my question...how many times do I need to apologize? We talked about the dogs....and he told me that the dogs love him more than anyone else...and that he was there to help get them...it was nice to hear him use the word, love......and I think we are going to be okay.....
But, we are going to have to have a chat for sure....I need him to be on my side...and to help me, and support me like I do him. And I need to not be afraid to talk to him...especially since he is so much a part of my life. For better or worse....we are together for a reason.
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I did have a long talk with Amanda last night about the guys in my life, and I just don't understand why I get into these situations with men...where I become their caretaker, protector, confidante...and I don't get that back from them. I told her that they were all the same to some extent...and she said well, Mike did offer to dig the hole. And she told me that she is over Loren....and that hurt me a little bit. I'm just tired.
I watched, 'Step Up' and was upset that I don't have anyone to love me, hold me and look at me with love in their eyes. I don't want to be alone anymore....I want to be loved and appreciated...
Alright...I'm out of here......I'm sad today.
Friday, May 25, 2007
What A Week!
Mike showed up on Tuesday night! with a very hot friend, too.....and he was very happy to see me and kept hugging me....and that made Lee come over to me....and then while Lee was talking with me, Mike came over and hugged me a couple more times...and Lee walked away. Amanda thinks it is a good thing.
Lee and I stayed at the bar til it closed....and he was tickling me, and then I started to tickle him back...and then I walked him partway to his car...and he hugged me full...and he was singing to me all night too. I text him sweet dreams....and he text me back the song.
Wednesday, Mike called me after he finished at court...I was his first call...then I called him at lunch and we talked for half an hour. He is sooo sweet. I text Lee asking him if he was playing anywhere...and he text back that he was not available.
Lee text me yesterday asking who was working...and then he text me that he would see me tonight at 10...then he said that his waitress is wishy-washy. and I text back"What? You won't get anybetter personal service anywhere!" And he replied, "he he"
wonder if he got the double entendre? He did show up....and he came and hugged me right away...he didn't last long, so I went and stood with him at the bar...and I gave him the wallet size picture of his straight flush. I text him thanks for playing when he left. I cant wait to see him tonight.
I haven't heard from Scott since Monday night when he text me....I'm a mess about that....but oh well....what can I do???
later!
Lee and I stayed at the bar til it closed....and he was tickling me, and then I started to tickle him back...and then I walked him partway to his car...and he hugged me full...and he was singing to me all night too. I text him sweet dreams....and he text me back the song.
Wednesday, Mike called me after he finished at court...I was his first call...then I called him at lunch and we talked for half an hour. He is sooo sweet. I text Lee asking him if he was playing anywhere...and he text back that he was not available.
Lee text me yesterday asking who was working...and then he text me that he would see me tonight at 10...then he said that his waitress is wishy-washy. and I text back"What? You won't get anybetter personal service anywhere!" And he replied, "he he"
wonder if he got the double entendre? He did show up....and he came and hugged me right away...he didn't last long, so I went and stood with him at the bar...and I gave him the wallet size picture of his straight flush. I text him thanks for playing when he left. I cant wait to see him tonight.
I haven't heard from Scott since Monday night when he text me....I'm a mess about that....but oh well....what can I do???
later!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Crazy Days
Sunday, I spoke with Carlos for about half an hour...it was an enjoyable conversation. Then I went outside to spend time with my dog, and found him to not be in a very good state---which got me very upset...and I knew that he was going to go to doggy heaven soon. So I decided I'd go play poker. Well, I ended up working...and Lee showed up for the second session...and we were at the same table....but I didn't get a chance to talk to him---so I text him that I had a shitty day, and would he hang out with me afterwards. I got us water moccasins, too. After we were done, he did sit with me for half an hour.
I had text Brian about going over but didn't hear from him....and no word from Scott.
Monday morning, when I woke up, my baby had transitioned to doggy heaven. So I called Mike to see if he had anything to dig a big hole with--besides a shovel. He actually offered to come dig the hole for me! I was sooooo touched by that. I called and left a message for Scott---no return call. Amanda was sweet and offered to come over. I text Lee also.
I managed to bury him myself....and then Mike called and we spoke for half an hour. I hope he goes tonight...I really would like to see him outside of the office. i was pissed at Scott and I text him, "Thanks a fucking lot for caring about me today." Amanda took me to dinner and Lee was there...and then he left....we went outside and I checked the phone...and Scott had left me a message....couldn't really understand it--except that he hoped everything was okay and it is terrible, and for me to call him when I got the message. Then I felt bad....but Amanda pointed out that he could have called earlier....he could have texted earlier....and that I shouldn't feel bad at all. Then we started talking about who would I really choose? Scott or Lee....and right then, as Amanda is explaining the difference to me, who pulls into the parking lot, in his hot car blaring music? And Amanda said, look at that, right on cue. Then she looked up and said thank you for being with me on this one. He put some oil in his car or something....and then and he came over to us and said,"sorry to hear about your dog." And I said thank you.....and I introduced him to Amanda....and then he said he went home and watched Heroes....then we talked about Buffy, and Angel. I told Amanda after he went inside---how much more perfect can he get???
I also asked her, can you tell I like him? And she said definitely....you are all googoo eyes. I asked her if she thinks he can tell....and she said she didnt know.
S0 I was seated behind him...I only bought him one beer...and then when we both got knocked out, we sat at the bar til he finished his beer....then we went outside and I gave him the beer glass...and he joked and said he will use it to put the brake fluid in his jeep. He did say thank you, and that I was thoughtful.
Slowly, I'm gonna prove to him that I am safe and okay. We said goodbye...and as he was leaving, he said manana.....so i am going to look forward to seeing him tonight!
When I got in my car, there was a text from Scott....Don't fuckin cuss me. Ever. I called him immediately...no answer. I text. then I called...and I text...nothing....I checked phone this morning...and he had to have gotten the message earlier in the day yesterday....and he hasn't checked the voicemail since last night. I text him this morning.....please dont be mad at me.
We'll see what happens. I was actually paranoid that he came home and had read my chat with aaron--cause I didn't turn computer off. I won't be making that mistake again.
I had text Brian about going over but didn't hear from him....and no word from Scott.
Monday morning, when I woke up, my baby had transitioned to doggy heaven. So I called Mike to see if he had anything to dig a big hole with--besides a shovel. He actually offered to come dig the hole for me! I was sooooo touched by that. I called and left a message for Scott---no return call. Amanda was sweet and offered to come over. I text Lee also.
I managed to bury him myself....and then Mike called and we spoke for half an hour. I hope he goes tonight...I really would like to see him outside of the office. i was pissed at Scott and I text him, "Thanks a fucking lot for caring about me today." Amanda took me to dinner and Lee was there...and then he left....we went outside and I checked the phone...and Scott had left me a message....couldn't really understand it--except that he hoped everything was okay and it is terrible, and for me to call him when I got the message. Then I felt bad....but Amanda pointed out that he could have called earlier....he could have texted earlier....and that I shouldn't feel bad at all. Then we started talking about who would I really choose? Scott or Lee....and right then, as Amanda is explaining the difference to me, who pulls into the parking lot, in his hot car blaring music? And Amanda said, look at that, right on cue. Then she looked up and said thank you for being with me on this one. He put some oil in his car or something....and then and he came over to us and said,"sorry to hear about your dog." And I said thank you.....and I introduced him to Amanda....and then he said he went home and watched Heroes....then we talked about Buffy, and Angel. I told Amanda after he went inside---how much more perfect can he get???
I also asked her, can you tell I like him? And she said definitely....you are all googoo eyes. I asked her if she thinks he can tell....and she said she didnt know.
S0 I was seated behind him...I only bought him one beer...and then when we both got knocked out, we sat at the bar til he finished his beer....then we went outside and I gave him the beer glass...and he joked and said he will use it to put the brake fluid in his jeep. He did say thank you, and that I was thoughtful.
Slowly, I'm gonna prove to him that I am safe and okay. We said goodbye...and as he was leaving, he said manana.....so i am going to look forward to seeing him tonight!
When I got in my car, there was a text from Scott....Don't fuckin cuss me. Ever. I called him immediately...no answer. I text. then I called...and I text...nothing....I checked phone this morning...and he had to have gotten the message earlier in the day yesterday....and he hasn't checked the voicemail since last night. I text him this morning.....please dont be mad at me.
We'll see what happens. I was actually paranoid that he came home and had read my chat with aaron--cause I didn't turn computer off. I won't be making that mistake again.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Damn...A Whole Week!
And there are a great many things to write about....almost too much to write about, really.
Scott---is in Portland again, and he left last Friday after we had an amazing night...and again, we almost had sex. I did give him a BJ....and I almost took my clothes off....but...it didn't get to that. Unfortunately. And it really was a beautiful night together....he was reaching out for me...and we wrestled, and were like two little kids...my therapist thinks that he was probably sexually abused---cause some of his behaviours aren't typical of a man....and he feels like something happened to him...
This past Tuesday, we talked on the phone for 1.5 hours til 4am...and he did say something about being molested. But it was one of the best talks that I think we have ever had...and when we hung up, I felt very warm and fulfilled by our conversation. I felt like we had gone to another level together. And of course, since that night, I haven't spoken or heard from him (voice or text)
Tuesday, Michael sent me a text that he was "sorry. truly." I liked that. I hope he will come out this next Tuesday night! We had a nice chat on Monday when he came in.
Lee: didn't show up on Monday...Tuesday, he came to the second session only, but I heard his voice, and my heart started dancing. He is just so damn beautiful..and I ended up spending alot of money on him. He also won...and when we were standing there talking, I put both of my hands on his chest, and told him I was very proud of him. Thursday night, he came and we got to hang out a little bit. Friday night, he came to the second session only and again we had a good time....he went and sat with some chicks though...and I didn't like it at all...I was very jealous. He didn't say bye again that night. Last night was a little different though....probably 'cause there is a new guy coming around me...and he must be able to see it. Several times we were looking at each other from across the room and locking our eyes...and at first, I thought it was just me, but one time, he was way across the bar...and he lifted his beer to toast to me. He definitely came around me more last night since the new guy was around me. Another guy was trying to get me to go home with him....And then when it was time to go, I went outside and he went to the restroom. I put my stuff in the car, and went to Lee's car, and when he came out, he said don't be walking around my car...and I said, I will walk where I want. Then he hugged me and got in his car...and I stood in his door, with my hands on his thigh....and asked him if he wanted to go eat...and he said he tries not to eat at that time to watch his girlish figure. And then he said...uh oh...Taylor is watching me and saying you bastard...I wanted to take her home. And I looked at Lee and said, well that isn't happening ever. And then he was goofing around and moved the jeep...and then would say no I didn't...and I made some joke about being waitress...and he said, you are doing just fine....and he caressed the side of my face...it was sweet and gentle....and I saw him look at my cleavage once (what little I have)....and we goofed for a few more minutes...then I did the same and caressed his face....and asked, "will I see you tomorrow?" And he said he is going to try and make it.
I was floating after that....and I'm worried because my heart is falling more and more in like with him.....he really is a beautiful man.
The new man: Carlos, first showed up on Tuesday night....and I could tell that he was instantly attracted to me....and he has been with me every night (where I work) except Wednesday...and today I called him and we talked on the phone for about half an hour...and he wants me to call him later. I said I would. He is very nice....great energy, cute....has a son, and I've already told him things about me that I wouldn't normally have told anyone! ruh roh.
so we'll see what happens tonight.....no drinking...and no money to buy Lee's drinks either. Go figure.....
Scott---is in Portland again, and he left last Friday after we had an amazing night...and again, we almost had sex. I did give him a BJ....and I almost took my clothes off....but...it didn't get to that. Unfortunately. And it really was a beautiful night together....he was reaching out for me...and we wrestled, and were like two little kids...my therapist thinks that he was probably sexually abused---cause some of his behaviours aren't typical of a man....and he feels like something happened to him...
This past Tuesday, we talked on the phone for 1.5 hours til 4am...and he did say something about being molested. But it was one of the best talks that I think we have ever had...and when we hung up, I felt very warm and fulfilled by our conversation. I felt like we had gone to another level together. And of course, since that night, I haven't spoken or heard from him (voice or text)
Tuesday, Michael sent me a text that he was "sorry. truly." I liked that. I hope he will come out this next Tuesday night! We had a nice chat on Monday when he came in.
Lee: didn't show up on Monday...Tuesday, he came to the second session only, but I heard his voice, and my heart started dancing. He is just so damn beautiful..and I ended up spending alot of money on him. He also won...and when we were standing there talking, I put both of my hands on his chest, and told him I was very proud of him. Thursday night, he came and we got to hang out a little bit. Friday night, he came to the second session only and again we had a good time....he went and sat with some chicks though...and I didn't like it at all...I was very jealous. He didn't say bye again that night. Last night was a little different though....probably 'cause there is a new guy coming around me...and he must be able to see it. Several times we were looking at each other from across the room and locking our eyes...and at first, I thought it was just me, but one time, he was way across the bar...and he lifted his beer to toast to me. He definitely came around me more last night since the new guy was around me. Another guy was trying to get me to go home with him....And then when it was time to go, I went outside and he went to the restroom. I put my stuff in the car, and went to Lee's car, and when he came out, he said don't be walking around my car...and I said, I will walk where I want. Then he hugged me and got in his car...and I stood in his door, with my hands on his thigh....and asked him if he wanted to go eat...and he said he tries not to eat at that time to watch his girlish figure. And then he said...uh oh...Taylor is watching me and saying you bastard...I wanted to take her home. And I looked at Lee and said, well that isn't happening ever. And then he was goofing around and moved the jeep...and then would say no I didn't...and I made some joke about being waitress...and he said, you are doing just fine....and he caressed the side of my face...it was sweet and gentle....and I saw him look at my cleavage once (what little I have)....and we goofed for a few more minutes...then I did the same and caressed his face....and asked, "will I see you tomorrow?" And he said he is going to try and make it.
I was floating after that....and I'm worried because my heart is falling more and more in like with him.....he really is a beautiful man.
The new man: Carlos, first showed up on Tuesday night....and I could tell that he was instantly attracted to me....and he has been with me every night (where I work) except Wednesday...and today I called him and we talked on the phone for about half an hour...and he wants me to call him later. I said I would. He is very nice....great energy, cute....has a son, and I've already told him things about me that I wouldn't normally have told anyone! ruh roh.
so we'll see what happens tonight.....no drinking...and no money to buy Lee's drinks either. Go figure.....
Monday, May 07, 2007
Saturday to Sunday Night
Scott and I were up til 7:30am yesterday...goofing around...laying on the couch together. It was fun...and relaxed.
The highlight of the night of course was seeing Lee...and he hugged me twice when he left..and toasted me twice. I so enjoy his big arms around me.
On the way home, I was going to Taco Bell..and my phone rang, and I thought it was gonna be Scott---and it was Michael! For a booty call! My first booty call ever at 2:30am...well, I know that Scott has called me late like this...but this call was definitely about sex....we talked on the phone for almost 30 minutes..and Taco Bell was closed. Again, he told me that I am way above average and that he can't wait to be with me again. This coming from a 48 year old...and I just wish it was coming from Scott. Oh well---at least I know I am wanted. Then we had text messaging sex. I can't even believe that I wrote some of the things I wrote...or that he wrote back.
him: What are you going to do to satisfy yourself?
me: very explicit described what he and I would be doing.
him:R u using toys while fantasizing? (haha! I was driving my car)
me: yes
him: what kind of vibes do you like?
me: I have several (remember, I've been celibate for over 5 years!)
him: Nice!
me: What are you going to do to take care of yourself?
him: Nada. Waiting for the real thing. (Riiiiiigggggggght...like I believe that!)
I was so freaking horny after Lee, then this with Michael.....I was hoping that Scott was gonna be tanked...and want to mess around. Unfortunately no!
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Sunday night, I got tanked....and Lee was involved....we had two shots and several beers between us...and he had me drive him to his car...and he leaned over and hugged me in my car, and I think I kissed his neck (I thought he was going to kiss me, and I would have!) I know that I caressed his neck...and oh my god...he feels and smells so good. It was about a 20 minute drive to his car....so we had a nice drive...and I touched his leg several times...
As A pointed out today...when comparing Michael, Scott and Lee.....who is the one that doesnt fit...and well...it's Scott...but how can I stop loving him just like that....and already be falling for Lee....when we haven't even been out. Oh gosh...he reminds me of Joseph, soooooo very much.
I was floating on the way home....
and then Scott was kind of a dick...and I told him I guess we won't see each other til fucking Wednesday then....and he got pissy too....so...I actually just got up off the couch and went to my room without saying a word...and I didn't even go say good morning or good bye to him. I was pissed off this morning, also....
He didn't answer my texts all day...until tonight....He is sitting at home...and I'm going to go see Lee. I shouldn't drink tonight---since I'll be drinking tomorrow night. Even though tonight is the better night to drink!
The highlight of the night of course was seeing Lee...and he hugged me twice when he left..and toasted me twice. I so enjoy his big arms around me.
On the way home, I was going to Taco Bell..and my phone rang, and I thought it was gonna be Scott---and it was Michael! For a booty call! My first booty call ever at 2:30am...well, I know that Scott has called me late like this...but this call was definitely about sex....we talked on the phone for almost 30 minutes..and Taco Bell was closed. Again, he told me that I am way above average and that he can't wait to be with me again. This coming from a 48 year old...and I just wish it was coming from Scott. Oh well---at least I know I am wanted. Then we had text messaging sex. I can't even believe that I wrote some of the things I wrote...or that he wrote back.
him: What are you going to do to satisfy yourself?
me: very explicit described what he and I would be doing.
him:R u using toys while fantasizing? (haha! I was driving my car)
me: yes
him: what kind of vibes do you like?
me: I have several (remember, I've been celibate for over 5 years!)
him: Nice!
me: What are you going to do to take care of yourself?
him: Nada. Waiting for the real thing. (Riiiiiigggggggght...like I believe that!)
I was so freaking horny after Lee, then this with Michael.....I was hoping that Scott was gonna be tanked...and want to mess around. Unfortunately no!
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Sunday night, I got tanked....and Lee was involved....we had two shots and several beers between us...and he had me drive him to his car...and he leaned over and hugged me in my car, and I think I kissed his neck (I thought he was going to kiss me, and I would have!) I know that I caressed his neck...and oh my god...he feels and smells so good. It was about a 20 minute drive to his car....so we had a nice drive...and I touched his leg several times...
As A pointed out today...when comparing Michael, Scott and Lee.....who is the one that doesnt fit...and well...it's Scott...but how can I stop loving him just like that....and already be falling for Lee....when we haven't even been out. Oh gosh...he reminds me of Joseph, soooooo very much.
I was floating on the way home....
and then Scott was kind of a dick...and I told him I guess we won't see each other til fucking Wednesday then....and he got pissy too....so...I actually just got up off the couch and went to my room without saying a word...and I didn't even go say good morning or good bye to him. I was pissed off this morning, also....
He didn't answer my texts all day...until tonight....He is sitting at home...and I'm going to go see Lee. I shouldn't drink tonight---since I'll be drinking tomorrow night. Even though tonight is the better night to drink!
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Friday update
barely saw scott for 2 minutes before I had to leave...went to work...and Lee had the shirt on that he made with the t-shirt that I made him. It was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! He owns a sewing machine...wowowowow!
We had a lovely time even though I was in a mood. He asked me where I would be tomorrow...and I said here...this is the only place...unless we go to Rockport...he said let's go...and I said...ok...I'd go with you. Then when he left, he gave me a full hug again, and I put my arms around his neck. I hope he goes tonight.
When I got home, Scott asked me if I was drunk...I said no...but he was kindof a dick...not wanting to share the couch...telling me to go to bed....etc....finally I got up and went to bed...and I didn't wake up til 1pm.
We went to dinner together...and we had fun....I also bought him a 12 pack of beer, so hopefully he will be drunk, too when I get home. Oh, it's hard when I am with him...and my heart melts...he was singing to me in the truck....and I loooooooooooooove that. I even asked him to come with me tonight---what was I thinking!
So now I am off to work....and the adventure of the night.
We had a lovely time even though I was in a mood. He asked me where I would be tomorrow...and I said here...this is the only place...unless we go to Rockport...he said let's go...and I said...ok...I'd go with you. Then when he left, he gave me a full hug again, and I put my arms around his neck. I hope he goes tonight.
When I got home, Scott asked me if I was drunk...I said no...but he was kindof a dick...not wanting to share the couch...telling me to go to bed....etc....finally I got up and went to bed...and I didn't wake up til 1pm.
We went to dinner together...and we had fun....I also bought him a 12 pack of beer, so hopefully he will be drunk, too when I get home. Oh, it's hard when I am with him...and my heart melts...he was singing to me in the truck....and I loooooooooooooove that. I even asked him to come with me tonight---what was I thinking!
So now I am off to work....and the adventure of the night.
Friday, May 04, 2007
The Most Interesting Week
Tuesday: Went to the mall to see Z. We spent three hours talking...and all I could think about was what I wanted to do to him, his mouth..and hands all over me. I gave him the card and letter when I left...and we somewhat made plans to see each other that night....and I sent him some pretty explicit text messages....
Wednesday: Scott came home...and he was happy to see me...as was I...and he immediately plopped himself in my spot on the couch...and I served him beer...and made a roasted garlic bulb for him. We watched Little Miss Sunshine...and Thank You for Smoking...it was nice and relaxing.
Thursday: Went to work...Lee and Alex and Rob were there....and Alex put my hand on his nipple...he was a little smashed. Rob was a little smashed.... Lee was great! He was gonna leave...and he ended up staying til closing...and I was between his legs...somewhat..and he was tickling me...and when he took my keys and told me I had too many thingy's...and I have to let go of the baggage...and when he saw the G---he said I can't touch that---that stands for Gspot...and I said if that is what it stands for, you are most welcome to touch it...in fact I insist. Then he said something about the Petsmart card being perky nipples...and he tickled me like 4 times...and we did talk a little. Then it was time to go...and he told me to wait...but I decided to put my stuff in the car...and well...I fucked it up....again...'cause when he came out...I went to talk to him...and he said do me a favor...and I said of course...and he said...we have to make it look like we aren't talking 'cause she is sitting in her car watching....I said okay....yup--his stalker was there again.
But he had a good time regardless....and I know he enjoyed his time with me.
Then I came home....and Scott was still up...and maybe he was a little tipsy...we laughed...and he was physical with me in his own way...and he let me hold his legs...we were on opposite ends of the couch, and I had my hands in his pant legs...and of course...touching him, I feel the love that I have for him...and wonder if he knows it too. We fell asleep together like that. And he wasn't pulling his body away from me.....that was nice....he is still sleeping.....
I decided it will be too much to go to Z's house for the party....I'm just gonna have to miss seeing Lance...it's gonna be too much for me. And I don't want to miss the opportunity to see Lee.
So that is the update....
Wednesday: Scott came home...and he was happy to see me...as was I...and he immediately plopped himself in my spot on the couch...and I served him beer...and made a roasted garlic bulb for him. We watched Little Miss Sunshine...and Thank You for Smoking...it was nice and relaxing.
Thursday: Went to work...Lee and Alex and Rob were there....and Alex put my hand on his nipple...he was a little smashed. Rob was a little smashed.... Lee was great! He was gonna leave...and he ended up staying til closing...and I was between his legs...somewhat..and he was tickling me...and when he took my keys and told me I had too many thingy's...and I have to let go of the baggage...and when he saw the G---he said I can't touch that---that stands for Gspot...and I said if that is what it stands for, you are most welcome to touch it...in fact I insist. Then he said something about the Petsmart card being perky nipples...and he tickled me like 4 times...and we did talk a little. Then it was time to go...and he told me to wait...but I decided to put my stuff in the car...and well...I fucked it up....again...'cause when he came out...I went to talk to him...and he said do me a favor...and I said of course...and he said...we have to make it look like we aren't talking 'cause she is sitting in her car watching....I said okay....yup--his stalker was there again.
But he had a good time regardless....and I know he enjoyed his time with me.
Then I came home....and Scott was still up...and maybe he was a little tipsy...we laughed...and he was physical with me in his own way...and he let me hold his legs...we were on opposite ends of the couch, and I had my hands in his pant legs...and of course...touching him, I feel the love that I have for him...and wonder if he knows it too. We fell asleep together like that. And he wasn't pulling his body away from me.....that was nice....he is still sleeping.....
I decided it will be too much to go to Z's house for the party....I'm just gonna have to miss seeing Lance...it's gonna be too much for me. And I don't want to miss the opportunity to see Lee.
So that is the update....
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