What To Do?

I'm just not sure what I'm doing or what is going on. Yesterday, I found myself doing the personality profile on Eharmony....and wondering about Scott.

Scott didn't text or call me yesterday...and he did call me tonight and we talked for about 12 minutes, and then he said that he would call me back. He still hasn't come home from Portland, and well...maybe he is missing me a little bit...or maybe not. And of course, he didn't call me back.

I know that I am not sure of what I am feeling these days...because I miss him so much...but I also know that I deserve to be taken out, and appreciated, and well, respected and adored.

And so far, I'm not getting that from him. So how can I really love him? And do I really? Or am I just lonely and filling space? I guess we'll find out if/when he ever comes back. He has to come back by the 5th to pay his rent....unless he is gonna let himself get evicted and just leave to go back to Portland.