I talked with Angela last night, and she said that in a way, I must not want to know the truth 'cause I am comfortable, and he is one of my best friends...so to confront him, might upset the balance of the whole thing.
I did leave two voicemails, and I text him last night to see if he wanted to go to a movie today.
I also told Angela, that we are like two schizophrenics...one minute he is close to me, and the next he is pushing me away. I just don't think that you can go from cuddling one day, calling me a nickname, and spending 12-14 hours a day with a person, kissing their hand, and calling them honey.....to nothing.
Last night, I figured out that we are approaching 8 months together. Some of it has been turbulent---but it's also been great.
And now that I opened up, it seems to have taken some of the pressure off of me. And well, I guess if he isn't man enough to be there for me.....then maybe he isn't for me afterall.
I know that this is just rationalization bullshit...I love him...and for some reason now, he is going into hiding---maybe he feels bad for what he says, maybe it was too much for him...who knows.
Clearly, he knows that I am not upset with him.
I've got things to do today...so I'm not going to spend alot of time on this.
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