We saw each other Tuesday night, Thursday night, and Friday night. Thursday and Friday night, we both fell asleep on the couch at about 5am. Tuesday night, I was there til 3am.
Wednesday night, we were on the phone for about an hour and a half. And last night we were on the phone from about 11pm til 2:30am. We laughed and talked about everything--ok..not everything...but we did talk about some spiritual stuff, and some anthropology stuff (I learned new stuff from him)and we talked about art...and music...and he got out some of his drawings, and was telling me the stuff that he drew, and which ones I would like...and that I would have to just look at them. I asked him why he stopped...and he said I'm borderline (ever so brief pause) with my drawing. He said, now that you brought it up though, maybe I will start again. I can't wait to see what he has drawn.
Clearly, we are becoming more intimate emotionally....and well, I guess it is a very safe relationship for me. I don't have to deal with any sexual issues that might arise from being physical with him.
I know that I feel very happy when I am with him, and when I leave him...I am on cloud nine.
But I am also setting myself up for disappointment. I have heard this quote more than three times this week, "The heart wants what the heart wants." And well...i know that my heart wants him...and that is why my heart sings when I am with him.
My therapist said that I need to trust my heart and intuition--cause I have learned how to filter people through, and in order for me to feel safe with someone, like Scott and Amanda--then I will know.
Probably explains my connection to Elizabeth, too. And my disconnect with K. right now. I don't trust her 1000%. And well, that is what it takes.
On a side note...I've sent two texts to Jason, and he hasn't responded. Maybe an oversight on his part. I hope..cause like Amanda says...I gotta keep my options open.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment