I Have Been Bitten! Big Time!

I didn't realize that I had written last month, at all about Scott....and I have been feeling that I was beginning to forget the little details about my time with him. I have soooooooooo much to write about my time with him....things are progressing slowly...and I am comfortable with that...and we have slept (really slept) together three times now. And a fourth night, I spent on the couch, and he tucked me in....He is gentle, kind, hilarious.......and amazingly hot!

Last night, I went to his house to give him his sunglasses...and he answered the door in his boxers! Always before, he has always gotten dressed....and oh, my god! I had to make myself look away.....I was getting just a little too turned on! He has a beautiful body---he even has nice feet! (when we go to sleep, its already dark, so it isn't like I get to see him---even though we do cuddle!) He was sleeping, so I had woken him up---and he wasn't feeling well. I offered to go get him some orange juice or chicken soup---but he said he was okay. So we chatted for a few minutes...and then I left, 'cause he was pretty sleepy....

Of course, my negative thoughts had to be held at bay---cause a part of me was convinced that he was acting---and that he didn't want me there...but the more rational side of me has to say---if he didn't want to see me---he wouldn't have answered the door! (let alone answered half naked!)

Something about him, makes me feel very happy. I really have so much to write about...about the different guys in my life....it's actually a very interesting time for me. I am being such a girrrrrrl!

I haven't seen Joseph online for two and a half weeks now....I will try tonight. I miss him....but I am also ready to let him go....I can't sustain a one way relationship forever...and I am not willing to let life pass me by.

My friend from Spain is coming to visit tomorrow for a week. Too bad he isn't romantically interested in me....he jokes about threesomes with me...but I don't think that is something I can do with him. I think it might mess up our friendship.