I started a new book, and the chapter that I was reading this morning was about healing emotional wounds, and learning how to trust again. My spiritual word for the day is *Ask*....and I am watching a movie with Laura Linney, P.S., about a 39 year old woman who believes that she has met the reincarnation of her childhood love.
Interesting themes flowing through here.
I did hear from Mark on Tuesday night at 10:45pm. He asked if I wanted to meet him at a restaurant, as he was just leaving work...and I said NO! Yes, I wanted to see him, but I hadn't showered...and I just didn't feel like going out....so I proudly said No...and didn't feel guilty at all. That is a first....and a good sign of my taking care of myself. Can you see me clapping for myself??
I did call him yesterday...and by now, surely he got the card from me. We'll see how he handles that, and the communication thereafter.
I didn't hear from Joseph yesterday, and this morning, he sent me an IM saying he couldn't "come" today.....Oh...I was so tempted to say something about that...but didn't have the guts to do so....instead I just left him a message that I was disappointed that I wouldn't be seeing him.
I am going to a music festival on Saturday...and I'm certain that there are going to be many fine looking men there....and the weather is going to be perfect!
It seems like every channel I turn to...has a woman who hasn't been with a man on it...and she is working through her stuff....and then all of a sudden she is ready for physical intimacy...and in all cases...it's because she feels safe and has trust in her counterpart. And most important of all....the woman has grown to love herself and accept exactly where she is...and who she is.
Guess that's what I gotta do!
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