Interesting Data

First, I haven't heard from Joseph...and well, I drank last night (didn't realize how much)and when I got home, I felt the loss of him...and missing him, and apparently cried myself to sleep, 'cause I woke up at 7am, and the lights were still on.

I haven't called Mark since the other day...I'm sure I will see him on Monday.

Last night was poker night, and well, everyone there is single---except for one man who has been married for 20+ years. And there was a new woman there, a friend of the host, and she was outgoing, friendly and a nice addition.

So of course, the subject of sex came up...and the guys brought up "blue balls", and the other woman, Lisa, said it's an excuse that men came up with to get women to feel bad for them, or to have an excuse to masturbate. The guys went nuts saying it is real...it is painful....etc...and Lisa said, women get just as horny as men...we just don't talk about it. Then the guys were like no way...it cant be painful like blue balls.....which led to my learning a new term....

"Whiskey Dick"---sometimes I feel like I have been living in a cave. I felt stupid having to ask them what it means...and fortunately no one laughed at me for not knowing. As it was explained to me, it's when a guy can't cum...and just stays hard. Now I am not sure where the whiskey comes into it.....but I can imagine that that would indeed be painful.....not to mention VERY frustrating.

So in my third person vernacular, I asked everyone what they thought about a guy telling a friend of mine that she wasn't normal for asking him in after dinner. (We all know it was me, from previous posting). And I asked them doesn't it imply sex if the guy is invited in. The guys seemed to think that yes, sex is implied...or that the guy will at least think his chances have improved if he is invited in....and that he was just covering up his bruised ego at realizing that he WASN'T going to be getting any. Lisa said, well just because a woman invites you in, doesn't mean she wants to have sex at all.

So....I personally am glad to know that I made the right decision for me.

Then one of the guys said that he is kindof seeing two women, but one woman isn't very touchy...and I asked how many times had he been out with her....and he said twice. So I asked him what does he mean by she isn't touchy? He said that when he tries to hold her hand...she won't.....Lisa said if someone isn't responding to physical cues, don't bother.

Wow...things are different. I have always considered hand holding to be a more intimate (psychologically speaking) act between people that genuinely care for one another. It seems more a long term relationship thing to do.....parents, friends, couples all hold hands. I wouldn't imagine holding hands with someone that I wasn't emotionally connected to. Like I can't see myself holding hands with Mark...with Joseph and Adam, absolutely. But I also have emotionally intimate relationships with Joseph and Adam.

I asked if anyone was going to go to the music festival....and only one guy said yes, so he took my phone number. He called and wants to go around 4 or so....and well, now I'm a little confused....'cause the way he was talking was like we were going together.....I was just planning to meet him there...no big deal.....definitely not like a date or anything! Ruh, Roh!