No Sex Dreams

I haven't had any in quite awhile! I realized this morning. Strange...I used to have sex dreams all the time. I think 'cause my subconscious was processing what wasn't happening on the physical level.

I have recently been thinking alot about the guy that I ever had the best sex with. I was the most uninhibited, wild and insatiable with him....we were together on and off for 6 years---and I can still remember specific nights with him, like they took place last night. I do know how to get in contact with him, and I have considered him being the one that would "re-initiate" me---as long as he isn't married and hasn't gained 50 pounds! We haven't seen each other in over 15 years. We did talk on the phone for hours at a time several years ago...for about 4 months....

I wouldn't say that I am obsessed with having sex again....i just know that there is a huge part of my life that I am not experiencing---therefore I am not living with full expression.

I gotta figure this out....and when it's gonna happen.